But even I, being the person I unfortunately am, had to say that without her I could be happier in my unhappiness than with her – she had touched me deeply, and I would so much, ever so much, have done everything.” 24 August, 1849
Kierkegaard broke off the engagement believing it would be torturous for Olsen to be his companion because there was “something spectral about me, something no one can endure who has to see me every day and have a real relationship with me”. Kierkegaard also believed that God was calling him to celibacy and that his life was soon to be over as his health was always poor, being rejected by the military for being unfit previously.